A Day in a Life as a Cal Student
I woke up at 5 AM. (this is not usual of me)
Today is special, I didn’t do my homework because I have DSP extension. I needed to take care of my mental health, and tend to other personal needs.
5AM laying in bed
6AM I have no idea, on instagram, journaling, stretching, attempted to workout
7AM still in my room slowly inching out to the restroom and kitchen
8AM on my way to school
9AM I’m now writing this blog. I should be doing homework, and I didn’t eat my breakfast burrito. I can’t focus. I am so anxious. I don’t know why but it’s here.
Hello Anxiety,
How are you? Do you like to hover over me like a cloud?
I don’t like it, I would much rather to continue thru my day with a full and happy stomach. I know I did the best I could yesterday. I continue to persist and show up despite my longing desire to stay in bed.
I am not a writer surprisingly, but I’m writing this blog. I don’t care how this turns out, I just write what’s on my mind and publish it. It’s actually wild. I like it.
Thanks for reading this far if you have. This is a hobby I like to do.
I try to pretend to be fancy and write informative stuff, but there’s also so much worry in the world that I don’t want to inform but connect and be relatable because being cool and awesome isn’t the way to go.
I understand I’m not perfect. Actually flawed, and I’m still going. It’s better to be flawed, than insecure. What if I’m both? Welp.
I feel fancy pretending to be working and typing up a storm when all I’m doing is typing out my thoughts. This is what you call a brain dump. I am literally dumping my brain. If I still have your retention, this is awesome. No one scrolls this far.
Today’s intention: exist. I will just move through today’s motion. I will submit my math problem sets. I will show up to class. I will take it slow. I am in no rush. I will have a coding interview later today, and I will be okay. This is all a part of the process. I know that I have my support system. I would like to seek out more career counseling sessions and talk about potentially a marketing job. I don’t have the energy to keep showing up and working on my cover letter. I am TIRED.
I missed a meeting last week and didn’t realize I missed it until 5 days later. I am behind, am a work in progress. I look forward to climbing later today. This will be fun.
I learned that at Berkeley students are facing chronic stress all the time, how do we fix that. You can’t fix it if it’s the environment that keeps enforcing these troubles. You just have to learn skills to manage it better like seeking Academic Coaches calling people for assistance, and having your community.
I am surrounded by distractions here at Berkeley. I get pulled in all directions and I just want to sit here and be still. I don’t want to get though my day. It’s a slow and steady work of art. We are working under pressure like diamonds. If you had a hard time following my thought process, that is fine I work that way and I’m sorry. This is me trying to improve my writing skills bear with me. K Thanks Bye for now.
