If you want to unleash your creativity, one thing’s for sure — uncertainty is key.

Absolutely, you’re spot on!

I’m not certain about my life and my trajectory. I’ve come to understand that it’s a privilege not to know what my content is and who my audience is. With time, I’ll carve my own personalized life, and it’s crucial for me to embrace this new exploration.

I’ve shamed myself for exploring my sexuality, joining interesting clubs, and simply being myself. Over time, I realized I’m at my best when I’m truly and authentically me. The impact of being fully and unapologetically myself surprised me.

I’m not perfect; I’m flawed. I accept those flaws, and some people love me for them. I appreciate the light my friends and family have brought into my life. The support I’ve received and the grace my friends offer me when I lack it for myself mean a lot.

This is where I find love and care at my lowest points. I invest in my foundations, seek guidance, and ask for professional help while acknowledging my limitations. Sometimes, I am a very quiet human. Despite being an introvert at heart, people perceive me as an extrovert. It’s strange, as I get tired of socializing, have social anxiety, and dislike eating in front of others. The power of a camera allows me to hit record without realizing how many people are watching behind their screens.

I feel guilty for the hours people spend listening to me. My wish is for them to apply what they learn in their lives to improve their well-being. However, that’s up to them. I can bring a horse to water, but I can’t force it to drink.

This is where I’ve learned the attributes of being a big sister. Navigating such a path is difficult and confusing, and I always look forward to the next goal. I don’t know why I’m like that, but I find myself surrounded by impressively smart people who I believe are a million times better than me.

Yet, I remind myself not to compare and to appreciate how far I’ve come. Today, someone asked about the clubs I joined in high school and what I wrote in my college application. I couldn’t remember because I did so much. Eventually, I recalled and shared my college essay. I might post it in a blog post or something.